Hi I am a Christian and I am having a real problem with the issue of forgiveness. Each week at church we pray the Lord's Prayer. The part that says "forgive us our sins as we forgive those who have sinned against us" is really freaking me out. I simply cannot pray for God to forgive me the way I have forgiven others when I am unable or unwilling to forgive my abuser, my parents, or myself at this time.
I am not even sure I know what it would look like, feel like or result in if I were able to forgive. I don't think that forgiveness results in forgetting but I don't know how I can really forgive when I still remember and am still dealing with the effects of all they did to me.
Any advise from other Christians or anyone else would be greatly appreciated.