I'm sorry Tinfoil,
I can't answer that for you.
Begging or questioning is good,
but directing it to God,
would be more helpful for you.
I would guess genuflect is like
a relationship, so depends on what kind
of relationship you would have.
I only know about my relationship,
with God, and if I have one,
so can anyone else,
of course it's your choice.
I believe God has kept me alive,
more then once.
I use to question why?
I have peace with-out knowing the answer
being said out-loud.