Hi, Ingwa, and thank you for this post. Thanks, too, to all of you have have responded so far. I am glad that we all know the difference between God and the insitutions and human leaders of organized religion. I believe am veyr aware that in all religions there are people who suppoed to be spiritual leaders but who perpetreate abuse behind closed doors. Religious leaderw are only uman and therefore no more or less vulnerable to doing terrible things.
I am also happy for us all that we are still able to find our own spirtual connections, whether through our religion's insititutions or in some other way. Good for us!
It sounds to me, Ingwa, like you are dealing with your past and on the road to healing and recovery! I am very happy for you and wish you a very productive and healing journey!