As the subject says, I need help. Since the horrid events of 11 Sept. a piece of music one hears almost every day on the T.V. or radio, is "God Bless America." That in it self is fine. What I am now trying to deal with each time I hear that song, is the past way back in 1951. Some of you may know that in 1950 thru 1953 I was in a childrens hospital for a horrible bone dissease. For all that time I was either on my back or stomach. During 1951 I was the victum of repeated rapes from two men of 18 years of age, and always at night when our one aide didn't or want to hear them and me holloring. All the years at that hospital, we could only see T.V. 1/2 hour Mon thru Fri. to watch the Howdy Doodie Show. Just before that show, we would hear the end of The Kate Smith show, and her ending it with the God Bless America song. When I hear it now, I cry like a baby, and every night at about 1 - 3 AM I wake up, and even last night I woke up or saw in my dream, those TWO YOUNG MEN rapping me. The last time I actually saw those guys was when the police were taking them from the hospital in Dec. of 1951. I haven't dreamed of them actually fucking me since the late 1950s. My question and request of answeres is WHY NOW. I realize that me being hit by a NYC subway train in 1990 has screwed up some of my brain, among other things, and I am going to my weekly visit to my counselor tomorrow, and my every third month visit to my doctor on Thursday. I surely don't need this added problem now, so any advice or commemts would be appreciated. Thanks so much. Bosishere