my first time was with another guy and it was abuse i guess, i didnt like it much. but then it kept happening and i got used to it and then started liking it, i think or i think maybe i just talked myself into liking it so it would be so bad when it happened? i havent figured that out yet. but then i was with a girl and it was just OK and i thought i liked being with guys better. but im still not sure. i dont know if its cuz of what happened from an early age or if i was just born this way or what.
i guess i like both.
sorry if this is way off from the original message, i start typing (or talking) sometimes and just cant stop.
thanks for reading


My lamb and martyr, this will be over soon. You look so precious.