In practice I have been straight, Bi, gay and everything inbetween. I HATE labels!!! But I know that I prefer women and am just afraid of them because of things I was told during the years of abuse. And I can also be Bi if I choose, but almost all of those relationships are about reliving the abuse or strictly genital sex and are unhappy affairs. I also fall into some of the Gay stereotypes, I like Elton John, Cher, Celine Dion, etc. and on and on, and don't care who knows it or what they think about it. After all is said and done, I suppose I am still human and this may be the most important lesson I am learning throughout all of this "searching". Thank you all for your help!!!