i don't really write well -
unless - i force it -

i am not going to put that kind of abuse on myself - at this occassion -

i hope to be understood - but if i am not that is ok -

that is sort of the message anyway -

no more breakdowns - no more spending
that i don't want to suffer (work) for -

the money i have - and will spend - will be for things - i am willing to fight for -

not incidentals that i would rather flush down the toilet -

no more - gotta have that -

why suffer for some sacrifice that isn't mine -


now that's a ball of confusion -

but - i don't care to work so hard anymore -
i want to walk gently down the street

there are examples out there - of wonderful self acceptance - and gentle care -

it might take a close call - to have it all

finally hit home -


"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous