i do have good moments really
I guess though last night was awful - it started good but then just a reminder of how alone I am -
I thought I had a connection with someone -
I suppose I could be forgiving of his angst -
but we seemed to get on really well - but
at the end - his way of communicating shifted and
it became pretty frightening in retrospect.
assumptions and paranoia - 20 questions and yet still with a promise to talk again there was utter nobelief on his part -
it ruined it - I so wanted a friend and now I am just uncomfortable.
he was inconsollable and strayed into the bizarre of almost a trance of saying things and not answering questions about what he said.
he did have a small smell of alcohol but just very odd.
ah well -back to the world of photographs and work search -
lol - and hugging my stuffed moose !
jokes aside - i just want a normal life -
day to day work and stuff -
ok - have a good one -
we'll get there -
"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders
"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous