hi guys,

i do have good moments really

I guess though last night was awful - it started good but then just a reminder of how alone I am -

I thought I had a connection with someone -

I suppose I could be forgiving of his angst -

but we seemed to get on really well - but

at the end - his way of communicating shifted and
it became pretty frightening in retrospect.

assumptions and paranoia - 20 questions and yet still with a promise to talk again there was utter nobelief on his part -

it ruined it - I so wanted a friend and now I am just uncomfortable.

he was inconsollable and strayed into the bizarre of almost a trance of saying things and not answering questions about what he said.

he did have a small smell of alcohol but just very odd.

ah well -back to the world of photographs and work search -

lol - and hugging my stuffed moose !

jokes aside - i just want a normal life -

day to day work and stuff -

ok - have a good one -

we'll get there -


"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous