a few minutes ago -

i went to a gay porn site -

i am gay


ok - I have been growing increasingly grossed out

by the stuff i see -

sorry - this is my opinion post -too

but more so -

I have been learning about myself
and the power of my identity
yes versus impulses that the abuse
nourtured -

i have been learning to avoid
uhealthy situations and
and complicated ones that take me
away from my goals - etc..

it is not that I do not like sex -

I love intimacy -

But I will tell you my thoughts -

I feel porn perpetuates a kind of
unhealthy mind

it perpetuates it perhaps and mutltiplies it

in the way we view ourselves and each other -

like a bad example -

like look have sex like these people - no way!

the sex or sex in general is

seductive -

but if you think in terms of how
that is influencing you to think about

your intimate life -

sorry for this really huge opinion -

some people like it those videos

... ok tastes - whatever -

but I kind of think it

influences us to see each other and the sex ezperience in a really kind of -


way -

like i need a shower - now

and like i feel bad -

ok - whatever -


any opionions? i feel gross -

"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous