Hi guys

I am new here and wanna thank you all for being so kind. Had a long chat with Thad yesterday and been thinking about that talk the whole day now.

I tried to get someting written but can't find the right words it seems.
Last few weeks at school were lousy at best, failed 4 test I really should have passed but somehow messed up, everyone around me is nagging I should do "something" just don't tell me what that something is and I sure as hell can't figure it out anymore.
everybody I speak to says you're fine, nothing wrong and stuff, but why do I feel like shit? I feel like nothing, keep shutting up when I wanna talk should talk, keep pushing people away that are nice and keep getting myself into trouble I don't want any of this to happen. I want it to stop but don't know how anymore