Welcome aboard! I'm glad you found this site! The information here, and all the supportive people, have truly been nothing short of a miracle for me. I was "stuck in the mud" for nearly forty years until I found this place, then the healing really started to happen.
I hope you have the same experience. In the meantime, you're with friends. PM, post or chat as you see fit and are comfortable, and most of all, be kind to yourself.
If I can make a reading recommendation or two, I'd recommend reading the "all lies!" thread here at MS. It does a wonderful job of debunking the falsehoods so many survivors were led to believe. You might also check out the "myths and facts" sections both here and at other sites like www.1in6.org.
Be well and, again, welcome.