I'm 19 now and I was abused when I was about 12 in a public bathroom. Ever since I was abused I have always frequented public bathrooms to masturbate (it seemed to be the only thing that totally got me off). In the bathrooms I had no problems getting off but when I was by myself at home I could not orgasm without peeing first or else I would have a painful ejaculation with my sperm being mixed with urine. I continue to have this problem and have never really been able to ejaculate at home without peeing first. Has anyone else heard of a sexual dysfunction like this?