I found myself in a real double edged sword. after a few years of being abused by Ernie (24 years older then me.) he introduced me to his wife and threesomes. at fifteen and a strong catholic only made the abuse with her more confusing and painful than with ernie. I was glad i liked women but i was to young to understand any of it. i felt i was going to hell becuase of ernie and his circle of peophiles but i was now committing adultery and that was a direct ticket to hell.

All i wanted to do was commit suicide and of course i couldn't do that because that was a direct ticket to hell also. it sucked being a teenager.