This was something it took me quite sometime to realize and accept. As I grew into adulthood I kept applying and adults experience to that of an eleven year old boy. I just does not work. At eleven I did not know or understand what grooming was, sex in general. Totally na´ve. I could not apply the understand of the world of a fifty year old man educated and married to that of a eleven year old. It just is unreasonable.
it is and has been quite a trip thru life, as last I feel that I am in a better place, it takes work and in my case a wife the was and is forgiveing and helpful. At last a relationship has gone right, messed up three.