You don't know this because you're new here, but I have been away from MS since June, and you are basically the first person I have responded to here in a meaningful way for months.

God brought me back because I had something in me that you needed to hear. It's caused me to be emotional too, as I have been forced to take my own advice and tell my defensive self (I call him Izzy, but he is your TwoFace) that I love him too, and that it will be OK and *is* OK.

And so I've been crying some. Maybe he's giving me permission to cry.

Feel free to PM me if you would like.

But he grew old, this knight so bold / And upon his heart a shadow / Fell as he found / No spot on the ground / That looked like El Dorado.