Check out a book, The Way of the Superior Man by David Deida. (In fact their is a free .pdf version online). The author explains some ideas of masculine/feminine interaction that I believe you would find useful. It was a very positive and insightful book that has helped me overcome the lies I leared and the lies I had been telling myself.

Not all of it will apply to you. It didn't for me, or my two best friends. But what does apply is simply life altering.

I am not defined by what is done to me. I am defined by the choices I make.

My story:

Odds are that I am typing on my phone. Please excuse punctuation and spelling. Editing is a serious pain in the neck.