Still -

yeah - that stinks! but from what i've read in your other posts, your kids will both notice your absence and miss you significantly. it sounds like you have a very good relationship with your son and that he loves you a lot. i know that doesn't make the hurt about being excluded any less. but it is much more important. to both of you. i had lots of family birthday parties - but after age 3 i never had a loving father. i hope you can cherish what you do have - even though it is not what you wish you had - or what you deserve.

LEE
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How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....
Habakkuk 1:2-3