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yeah - that stinks! but from what i've read in your other posts, your kids will both notice your absence and miss you significantly. it sounds like you have a very good relationship with your son and that he loves you a lot. i know that doesn't make the hurt about being excluded any less. but it is much more important. to both of you. i had lots of family birthday parties - but after age 3 i never had a loving father. i hope you can cherish what you do have - even though it is not what you wish you had - or what you deserve.

"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"