Thanks everyone for your comments.

I recently found out from my mother what abuse she experienced in her own family of origin. I'm not sure yet what may come from this information, but it does help me get a picture of what may have contributed to my difficulty relating to her.

I am slowly trying to move from a tightrope of vigilance into a more conscious and accepting awareness.

I wish you all peace and growth in your healing process.

Lose the drama; life is a poem.