I've been lurking this forum for the past week before I decided to join, and it seems like I'm probably much younger than most here(25 y.o.). My life started to unravel about a month ago when the suicidal thoughts intensified and my alcohol addiction came into the open. The CSA occurred sometime around 5,6,or 7 years old at a friend's house. The mother's boyfriend violently assaulted me, and I kept it a secret up to this point.
I'm doing much better these days(currently sober and seeking therapy), but I recognize the arduous journey I face toward recovery. It is my hope that I can glean some advice from here, commiserate(I'm shocked by how much I relate to so many threads), and possibly help my fellow brothers.
"Shine on forever
Shine on benevolent sun
Shine down upon the broken
Shine until the two become one
Shine on upon the severed
Divided, I'm withering away
Shine on upon the many, light our way
Benevolent sun"