I just need to repeat what the others have said man I fought off telling and"reaching out" for 48 years still struggle with isolating and trying it on my own. It is frightening in the beginning... hell all the way through so far but like others have said I finally realize that the other way was never going to work. so as hard as it can be, just keep at it man. good thing is YOU set the pace and you decide what is safe. congratulations on taking the first step.
Either I will find a way, or I will make one.