good start, kasper! and once you take the first step - the rest is not quite so scary.
i tried the whole denial and repression and forget about it route, too. didn't work. actually just made it worse.
so i tried T and this MS forum and reading and writing a lot - and that has all helped. hope you find the same.
anyway - welcome. you are among friends who will understand almost anything you say. these guys have been my lifeline.
hope to see you around,
How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....