good start, kasper! and once you take the first step - the rest is not quite so scary.
i tried the whole denial and repression and forget about it route, too. didn't work. actually just made it worse.
so i tried T and this MS forum and reading and writing a lot - and that has all helped. hope you find the same.
anyway - welcome. you are among friends who will understand almost anything you say. these guys have been my lifeline.
hope to see you around,
"the scariest thing about abuse of any shape or form, is, in my opinion, not the abuse itself, but that if it continues it can begin to feel commonplace and eventually acceptable."
- Alan Cumming, "Not My Father's Son"