the finding of joy and knowing the building blocks of growth along the journey is so optimistic and thank you for sharing.

For myself, I am struggling with accepting that my mother for all that she taught me and all the opportunities she made possible for me was still the woman who violated and abused me.

I know that those who appreciated what I DID WERE ACCEPTING OF ME, IT WAS I who refused to believe I was acceptable to anyone. It was I who help on to the delusions that I was the monster if I ever lost control.

Though I know it was all lies, I still can not reconcile my losses with woman who taught me she loved me regardless of her violations and guilt for her own behaviors,

Again, thanks for the hope that acceptance can bring joy.