lol Jude. I'm getting that from a LOT of people, including biological mom who's a retired RN. Very reluctantly - and it's not a machismo thing - I'm doing it. But it's damn frustrating to actually be so helpless. Now that you bring it up, I don't think I've felt this helpless since I was a post-CSA teenager still living under the same roof with the adopted mommybitch. Cardiologist, btw, is Tues afternoon.

As far as you're heart belonging to me, if you know a good transplant doc I'll take you up on the offer ;-)...except I like your Bette Midler quote.

fwiw, cancelled the visit with the new "kids" tomorrow. Half hour drive's a bad idea this weekend.