Another drip from the damn I held up for 25 years. John, the rapist frequently reassured me that what we were doing, what he did to me, was practice for when we had girlfriends.

Exactly how does sucking a dick prepare one for the ladies?

I'm stunned and disgusted by this memory - which is really a collection of memories.
It's okay to find the faith to saunter forward
With no fear of shadows spreading where you stand
And you'll breathe easier just knowing
that the worst is all behind you
And the waves that tossed the raft all night
have set you on dry land
- The Mountain Goats - "Never Quite Free"