welcome, lost mountain.
some things you wrote really resonated with me.

"Family can leave big scars just with their tongues."
the deepest cuts can come from those we need the most.
sometimes even as we reach out to them.
your words cut me like a sword.

"I just opened up with all my feelings"
this is the good news.
very happy to hear!
best part is, this is a reward unto itself.

"boohoo for me."
yes! three times yes!
by all means, cry for yourself.
i cry for you.
what happened to you IS a tragedy.
your survival and recovery are a triumph.
cry tears of mourning, joy, and victory.

thanks for sharing.
your bravery gives me courage.
your honesty gives me hope.