I agree. I have an appointment Monday with a T. I figure if my boyfriend isn't ready for help or isn't going to get it at all...I can at least build myself up and prepare myself for this journey wherever it takes us. Right now I am not in a position to make any decisions and I feel so emotionally confused and unwanted that I need to focus on me and stop trying to push him for help or trying to get his love and attention. I just worry that the T is going to tell me to walk away. I am not ready to do that yet.