Hi truestory, thanks for your response

Sorry I didn't see this until now- sorry to hear about your situation, but at least now you can pursue something that will give you what you truly need!

I understand exactly what you mean about the 5% ratio thing- when they are so emotionally distracted and not present, it's hard to have those needs met. I can definitely relate to holding on to the little things that he did, because positive moments were so rare that you almost can't help but hold onto them and amplify their value in your mind, but it is just due to the scarcity of them

Thanks very much for your advice, I am trying to take the time to meet my own needs right now and do things to keep myself healthy and safe. Feel free to pm any time if you would like to chat about anything!
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