Thank You Todd. It does take a lot of courage and strength to tell my story. It gets easier, and harder at the same time. Every time I tell my story, a new memory comes up, which confuses and upsets me. But the release I feel when I tell it, is amazing, so I am glad to tell it. I want the good to outweigh the bad, and so I keep pushing.
Welcome aboard, Nolan. I know it takes a lot of strength and courage to reach out, post your story, and take those first few steps. So I just wanted to give you a high five for taking that step.
There is a lot of information here, and it can feel a bit overwhelming at times. But, there are a lot of great guys on this site that know what you are going through and are there to help as you begin to work on these issues.
Good luck moving forward, and good luck in your recovery.