It's summer and women are wearing less and there are adds for swimsuits, etc.

I hate how all this visual stimuli interests me. It just all reminds me how easily I was manipulated by my Mom. She gave me calendars, lingerie catalogues, etc., all the while knowing why I wanted to look at them. There were times where she stood in my door partially dressed, and I really didn't want to look at her because I didn't like how it made me feel.

This might be a typical guy reaction, but I wish it weren't so easy. They talk about how women need time, attention, etc, to become aroused, but men can get excited with visual stimulus. I wish it weren't like this, because it makes me so predictable, controllable, etc. The add companies know a certain figure and a certain angle will have a certain effect. And they are right.

I wish I could say they weren't. I wish I could say Mom was wrong. But, well, I follow the script.
"This is not my shame, this is their shame." Mona Eltahawy