I am 31yrs poz and csa survivor I have struggled and by the grace of god I am still standing You can live with this as you have lived through the csa. if I can you can I was molested and my attacker gave me this disease I was 12 years old. I have gone through the gambit of emotions and caught F.I.S pardon my Language fis stans for "Fuck It Syndrom" when it can cam to my Hiv. but someone told me this "you cannot die from something until you learn to live with it ". it wasnt even called HIV yet when I was Diagnosed so if I am still her guess what ? there is hope for you keep plugging away and dont give up hope I am here for you if you need me