The pot smoking is because your background anxiety levels are off the charts now that your body is aware of the abuse and violation, it is in hyper-alert mode. If a normal person's anxiety level is a zero or 1, a CSA survivor's could be a 4 or 5, and then spiking from there as he encounters stress.

The pot smoking helps to dial back the anxiety level; this is my daily life.

Cant
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I'll be just fine and dandy
Lord, it's like a hard candy Christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But I won't let sorrow get me way down.