Originally Posted By: Jaifian
All the talk about how courageous I am by therapists just goes out the window and I feel like crap. And this hit when I was already depressed. It makes me feel like I should have made him shoot me instead of let him rape me.

I absolutely hate this feeling. I have thoughts like that, too, a lot. I wish I had something to say other than that. You are not alone.
“If a man wishes to be sure of the road he treads on, he must close his eyes and walk in the dark.”

- Saint John of the Cross