I'm not quite certain what you are saying/asking. (my head is a bit fuzzy this morning) But God or a higher power is not even a consideration for me. If someone was to forward that as a path to healing I would thank them for their time and look elsewhere. I don't know if the CSA or something else destroyed my faith (I was brought up in a Christian household) but it no longer exist for me and I don't want it either.

Do I deny or reject the God / higher power concept? No. It just doesn't matter to me.