What I've done over the last 30 years (this is how I survived)

Followed my dreams; followed my passion
Acted as if
sought a lot of help through therapy and 12 step
sought out faith and a higher meaning
kept looking for things I liked, and tried to do them
didn't give up (even though I felt like doing so over and over)
became humble to look at my own faults and shortcomings and endeavor to work on them

I'm still waiting for the fruits of my labor. But I can see the work I've done starting to ripen in the vine of my life. I'm starting to see a change in my every day experiences around people; I'm feeling more comfortable in my skin, becoming more centered and grounded, and as a result, am starting to enjoy the small moments.