How do I begin to move past the fact that I am slowly waking up in a world where I am an abused man. A childhood stolen, grew up way too quick. How do I grieve while being at work, while being at home, while being at play? How do I be sad and grieve?
I am depressed, sad, my hope for a full family, happy and real... gone. My positive childhood memories now clear. I had an awful childhood.
I'm a Sales guy and I can't be positive and chipper... it's fake. I am not positive and chipper. I am angry and sad. But it pays the bills and makes therapy possible. So how do I be real in all aspects of my life?
Fuck it. I don't care. I just want to be real, genuine and honest. How do I do THAT?
May your past be the sound of your feet upon the ground, carry on. ~Fun.