as far as i am concerned, i only have two addictive problem behaviours left.
marijuana and masturbation.
i know, in my heart, from decades of repetition, they are not healthy for me.
i always feel better when i abstain, i always feel worse after i indulge. yet, i am unable to maintain total abstinence, because the secret part of me feeds on the pure pleasure.
that is the confusing nature of addiction.
i know, without doubt, that these activities are a betrayal of all i hold sacred. my marriage, my family, my faith.
i cannot eliminate or avoid temptation, only resist it.
there are no physical solutions to spiritual problems. Romans 7:19
"For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing." - apostle Paul