I am new to the forum and I have been struggling lately. I was Abuse as a child by my neighbor. He was a few years older than me. Every since than I have had sexual relationship with guys. However, I been married to my wife coming up on 7 years. I lust after men and when I look at guys I can easily say man he looks good to myself. But my attraction for women is not the same. I am struggling because I am married and have a 4 year old daughter and a 13 year step son. I have caused my wife tremendous pain over the years. She accepted my ways but it's no trust. I can't even concentrate right now. I am finding it really hard to admit if I am gay or bi. Why am I sturggling so hard with this. I need help. All advice will be consdered and helpful. Thanks for listening guys. I am in Celebrate Recovery for my sexual addiction.