be easy on yourself kid
of course you're right to feel the way you do.
for what it's worth, my wife has social anxiety and my abuse and therapy certainly hasn't made it better. she's always wanted to and is now seeing a psychologist for that issue alone. best I can tell, and what she'll admit is she wasn't abused
she's a "normal" struggling with social anxiety as well.
the problem is the lies we tell ourselves. I don't personally know you. but, since you have the courage to face your abuse and post on this board, i conclude that you are a brave and courageous soul. anyone would be lucky to know YOU.
You're better than you realize or give yourself credit for