Not sure if this is the right place for this but im throwing it out there anyway. I have been comming to terms with my CSA now for a year, I have for the most part left my church. The more I dig into my past and make strides in my "recovery" the further I pull away.My family still attends but I will not allow myself to go. I think its possible that I was searching for peace when I was an avid church goer, a peace i never found. Now I feel judged even though no one knows my past perhaps dirty. I am finding inner peace with myself and WHO I AM, but there seems to be no room for god in it all. I now know my cries for help were never answered and i feel my prayers fell on deaf ears. Im not sure what im looking for in this thread maybe insight or another point of view. I am in a good place now thanks to my wife, a year ago I didnt see a way through the fog.
Has anyone else found faith unnecessary after they started to heal?
Yes. I feel the same way. I don't believe in God, and I'm learning that letting that go has taught me to take agency for my own healing and not expect miracles that never happened.
A belief in God helps a lot of people here, but it is not correct when people say God is the only way to find peace. There's a lot of different conceptions of God and a lot of people who are smart, well-adjusted atheists. And this comes from someone who was an evangelical Christian for thirty years.
So no, you are not alone.