Not sure if this is the right place for this but im throwing it out there anyway. I have been comming to terms with my CSA now for a year, I have for the most part left my church. The more I dig into my past and make strides in my "recovery" the further I pull away.My family still attends but I will not allow myself to go. I think its possible that I was searching for peace when I was an avid church goer, a peace i never found. Now I feel judged even though no one knows my past perhaps dirty. I am finding inner peace with myself and WHO I AM, but there seems to be no room for god in it all. I now know my cries for help were never answered and i feel my prayers fell on deaf ears. Im not sure what im looking for in this thread maybe insight or another point of view. I am in a good place now thanks to my wife, a year ago I didnt see a way through the fog.

Has anyone else found faith unnecessary after they started to heal?

"Those are not your sins" A wise man