Welcome! I'm new as well, but from what I've seen here it looks like a cool place with friendly people.

It takes a lot of strength to open up about abuse, especially to those close to us. By finding that strenght, you've already got a good head start.
If you cannot overcome the current, then let the current take you. Only one certainty is sure, that the future is unknown. the river may be harsh, but still obeys Life's laws. The rest is up to you