That was a very big step in your recovery. You don't need any more triggers than you already have. Shit that was brave of you. I think that was a very brave thing to do. That was a statement heard around your family.
I always wish people well but I really want to wish you a new beginning. I don't think that anyone would want to walk into a bad neighborhood so why go to a funeral with bad people.
I really hope that you were able to work OK instead of wondering why you didn't go or what people would say. Shit, that's a whole lot better than I can do towards my parents.
Good luck, let us know what happens when the shit hits the fan. I'm sure you will do a lot better know with that first big step.
Peace, Rainbows, Love & Healing
Stick around, It will get better....🌹🌹🌹