Thanks DavO and Kevin. The support i have gotten over the last 24 hours has been so good and warm. I had to go out for a walk after i got your messages. Cant cry at my desk in the office. Some of this really hurts. Before i started to get hit by triggers and memories last october, i hadnt really wept in 40 years. That part of me hardened off back then. Sometimes this is really hard. Thanks my name is Dave