I am so depressingly fucked up.

I am in therapy... have been for almost a year.

I know I was abused and sodomized by my father, fucking asshole. I hate him. I want to punch him in the face and watch him bleed. He deserves it.

I know all this stuff, anger and shame are starting in on me in full force.

How the hell do I get up and moving with me and my day? How the hell? What the hell do I do now?

All this great knowledge and honest perspective I've gained is just making me more upset!
May your past be the sound of your feet upon the ground, carry on. ~Fun.