Hi Vineyard, welcome to Male Survivor.
I'm sad to hear yet another story similar to many others frown but I'm happy to hear that you have support from your fiancée.
You are not alone, this is good place for finding additional support, there are a lot of similar stories from which is possible to learn a lot.
I find many resources, articles, book and advices trough which I learned a lot about myself since I came here.
Keep search for your answers, it worth and I'm sure you'll find it!

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