I posted this in poetry not sure why, I felt that it needed to not be hidden and it was hard to put out somehow. this forum is where it belongs

Shaken, silence! You must be still others more important need their rest
Muffled cry becomes a moan, stifled sobs
Maintain yourself, contain yourself
Embraced, secure,
She loves me.
A gentle kiss, caress, embrace
Safety warmth, she loves me
Her weapons kiss, the strap a switch
Leather tearing, flesh, insanity!
All because she loves me
You should know this, I don’t know this!
Stupid, angry boy. Violent, villain, pain and RAGE
Then this pain corrects, her word is LAW
She’ll drive out the beast whatever it takes
She loves me?
After a time, friends of a kind sharing secrets too deep
Just a boy in a man’s world still laying down law
Don’t grow up like him son, Treat your woman well Hun.
Though she’s no good for you anyway you are mine
She loves me …
Doesn’t she?
Either I will find a way, or I will make one.
Philip Sidney