hanks TM, Geoff and Matt! Seems when I think I've traveled pretty far down the road with this, it suddenly feels like I wake up and find I haven't gotten anywhere. Healing words like you all have shared mean a lot.
You will find them to be an insecure little person who gets their feelings of accomplishment from hurting and publicly embarrassing another.
do think what you say is quite true, even though the ferocity of the bullying belies that logic and makes me lose my religion all over again.
The more you just give yourself to people, the more they take. It sets up a sick dynamic and bullies can sniff it out and exploit it quickly.
don't argue or even doubt that at all. I just am completely clueless to understand it. I just cannot fathom what would motivate such behavior.I
still think the dynamics involve me as well - that I somehow attract these people into my life. This is not the first time - or even the second time - this kind of thing has happened. I'm an abuse magnet - have been since I was twelve. I wonder if that next-door neighbor never trespassed my boundaries back then, people would be doing it today. Not that I'll ever know the answer, but I still wonder.