Thank you for your feedback, guys.
I'll look into a therapist and see who I can find. I did meet with one briefly but at that time so much stuff was going on that this wasn't even on my mind at the time, but like rain it has a curious time of when to show up and not let up.
Thank you for the link finallyopen, I checked it out and helped me a bit.
I just feel like there's always a huge sign on me, a scarlet letter, that is painfully obvious to me and everyone else that there's something not quite right. I'm fine when it's not there but then I'll see something on tv or read something and it makes me compare myself to the guys there and I feel different and bad and not at all how they do and how I want to be.
Thanks again guys.