I am new to this site. I am a survivor of sexual abuse. I am 42 years old. I was sexually abused by two men at the same time for 2 years. I was also sexually abused by a male family member until age 13. I have been in therapy since age 22. I have a lot of issues such as PTSD, Anxiety, Depression, Hypervigilance, and OCD. To me hypervigilance is the worst. It is hard describe but is basically PTSD on steroids. I used to have really bad nightmares, but through therapy no more. I thought by 42 years old I would be "fixed" by now. I am in a much better place now than 20 years ago. I still have a lot of pain in my heart. I still cry sometimes. Very few people in my family know what I have been through. Just my mother, father and older sister know. I am still embarrased to tell my brothers or friends.