Thanks for that, I needed to read it. I am in a better place with all of it today. I have some things to do/work on, the messy part is over (for now I guess) and I have some things to work on. I feel crazy, so I must be. From what I can gather from others this goes away, lessens over time, looking forward to that. Thanks to everyone again.
"what matters most is how well you walk through the fire"
-Charles Bukowski